First & foremost, I miss you. I miss you more than I could ever put into words.
I was always afraid of facing this big, scary world without you, & surely, I wasn’t ready for our story to end. But I knew this time would come, I just wish I had longer.
Luke Bryan said it best;
And I don’t know if I raised him or he raised me
And I thought we would be together
Go on and on just like that, forever
But I was young back then
How was I supposed to know
Little boys grow up and dogs get old
LITTLE BOYS GROW UP AND DOGS GET OLD
But first, I need to say thank you. Thank you for being right by my side. Thank you for loving me when I couldn’t love myself. Thank you for being a part of every single memory from 8-18. Thank you for always knowing what I needed, even when I didn’t know myself. Thank you most of all for being you.
To me, you were always more than a dog- you were my best friend and dammit, were you the greatest friend I could’ve ever asked for.
Ten years was just too short. I know, I know that sounds ungrateful. Your sweet soul touched every soul you came in touch with. I just wasn’t ready for our story to end (I never would be ready, ever ever).
Even if I got just one more day with you. I’d fill it with all your favorite things. We could go visit all your favorite people & eat all your favorite foods. We’d snuggle up real good & I’d take you to all your favorite places. I’d introduce you to all our new friends & I’d never let you go.
But life had other plans for you- plans I will never understand. I’m learning to cope with the pain of losing you. Time doesn’t heal all wounds, but I’m learning to tell your story with a smile instead of tears. Your name still warms my heart & your pictures bring a smile to my face- but time will never lessen the gut-wrenching punch of losing you.
I know you hated leaving me just as much as I did you, but I promise I’m learning to live with the pain. You sent me some pretty great companions & I’m forever grateful for your hand in choosing them for me, because I need them, too. I see a little bit of you in them & I know it’s you sending me those sweet little messages. I’m being taken care of down here, I promise.
You stole my heart when I ran around in and pigtails, and I’ll remember you until I’m old, wrinkly, & grey. You left this world with a piece of my heart.
Wait for me on the edge of the rainbow bridge. I’ll come running for you, whenever my time comes. I love you always, sweet boy.