Here’s To 25!!

24 brought a lot of challenges. 

I lost a lot. I struggled a lot. 

I had to learn how to re-live my life- yup, every. single. aspect. I had to rely on friends & family (in the middle of pandemic) for almost everything. I had to put off doctors’ appointments for issues that were urgent. I had my limits tested at every single turn. 

I lost…

  • My ability to walk independently. 
  • My ability to turn over or adjust in bed
  • My ability to use the restroom
  • My ability to bend
  • My ability to independently get up 
  • My ability to sit in a car
  • My ability to sit in a normal chair
  • My ability to dress/ undress myself
  • My ability to stand up straight or independently

I had to trust the process & learn to live with a body that was on its own timeline. 

It was  & still is hard. I lost my sense of normal (in way more than just a global pandemic). I had to relearn how to do just about everything in my life. 

But here I am, still fighting. I lost a lot this year, but I survived, and sometimes that’s all you can do.

This life is crazy & I never imagined I’d lose so much so quickly, but I did & here we are. But you know what I didn’t lose? My support system. Or my sarcasm (& sometimes dark sense of humor). I didn’t lose my house or a loved one- and honestly, that’s way more important to me.

This year tested my limits & pushed me hard(er than I needed to be). It’s still a struggle everyday (and it will be for a while). This stage of life is different. I wasn’t ready for it,& I certainly wasn’t given time  to prepare. It’s hard to teach someone to care for you when you don’t even know what you need or how to do it. It’s stressful & tempers flare on more than one occasion. 

I’m learning to cope. I’m figuring out little by little- with the help of an amazing support system. I’m learning to give myself a little more grace, learning some patience, & learning to trust my loved ones.  It’s a process & it’s not pretty or easy, but that’s my life. 


So, Here’s to year 25. Please be easy on me. 

Here’s some exciting things in store for Year 25:

Published by carlilyn.blog

Hi, my name is Carli Lyn. I'm a little sassy & a little smart-assy. I'm a 25 year old grandma who loves to sleep, drink tea, & watch TV. I'm an avid (okay, crazy-obsessed) St. Louis Cardinals baseball fan. I am a crazy obsessed dog mom to my two little girls- Patience & Graci. I'm the pickiest eater you'll ever meet. The only healthy habit I have is drinking 8+ cups of water a day. I love Target. I love planners & pens. I love organization and anything HGTV. Oh also, I have a rare genetic bone condition- Fibrodysplasia Ossificans Progressiva &I have really cute little big toes.

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