A lot of things seem to be going wrong lately. I have little aches & pains that I just can’t seem to shake & unfortunately, they keep multiplying. I’m in a ton of pain, my fur baby is in pain, and it breaks my heart. I’ve noticed my personal life suffering because of things (& other people) that I can’t control. It’s hard to take a step back when your world turns into a tornado.
But instead of being Ms. Negative Nelly, and let it consume me, I took a step back. I changed my perspective. I can’t control my chronic aches & pains. I can’t control those around me & how they treat me. I can’t take the pain away from my baby. But what I can do, is change my outlook. I can’t change the people around me, but I can change who I let into my life. I can take steps to actively control my pain. I can re-evaluate who I let into my life. And most importantly, I can take a step back & embrace the good things in life.
I have an amazing support system of both friends and family. I have the support of amazing doctors doing everything they can to make my pain & illness go away. I have my partner in crime who is always willing to go on any adventure with me. I have the ability to take the time to explore a life many would never know. I can rely on the little things, like getting Iced Tea every day or going to Target multiple times a week.
I’ve learned embrace a small life- filled with daddy-daughter dates, watching tv with my mom, taking my little family (my dog & boyfriend) to get sno-cones, and going on lots of Target trips.
Sure, I could choose to focus on the never-ending pain in my legs, arms, and back. I could choose to live a miserable life, but that’s never been my style.
My illness has tried to suck the light out of my life, but somebody forgot to tell life that I’m tougher than anything it has to throw my way.
I have 124,043, negative things to focus on, but I have 124,044 positive things to focus on. I’ve always lived a life half-full, and that’s how I intend to keep it.
The only thing half empty in my life is my glass of iced-tea.